Introduction

Introduction

Oh my...this is a new adventure. I hardly ever read blogs, let alone write one. However, it seems to be a great way to share what I have been learning and to learn more from others, so here it goes:

I thought that I was dying in December of 2011...I had frozen shoulder, my joints were inflamed, I wasn't sleeping well, I took several antacids daily and was waaay too heavy for comfort. I felt ashamed about how I looked and felt like I was on a downward sprial...

I have a daughter and a husband that I adore, a job that I look forward to going to every day and great family, friends and animals that make me happy...yet in late 2011 I felt like my physical body was on it's way out!

To be honest, I wasn't thinking about what I was eating. I wasn't even tasting what I was eating. One minute there would be a meal in front of me and the next it was gone...and I'd think "where the heck did it go?"

Matt and I are long time foodies, we love to cook, we love to invent beautiful meals and enjoy them together, we love great ingredients from local sources. Somewhere along the line, I started living to eat...

I have seen a few outstanding therapists over the years. I have worked on my abandonment issues, nurtured and healed my inner child, done a little EMDR and hypnosis...it's all been good, but here I was, staring into the abyss and feeling really scared and more than a little pissed off for having let myself go so far.

And, I have this amazing daughter: this kid who has always been a tree climbing, cow wrasseling, unique and creative wild woman. This girl, at the age of 20, has already led an amazing life, and with her, the sky really is the limit. All she wanted was to be able to go for a hike with me...and I could barely make it up the stairs or out to the mailbox.

So something went click, sometime just before the beginning of 2012. A voice said "this is it...get with the program or leave the planet". I decided to stay...because life is too interesting, and my family is too important, and I have so many things to do...